Music and blah blah:)

you tell me stars have a language, mountains grow taller, Bukowski still writes Neruda doesn't know love. You tell me Italy is the place, mirror is an occasional lier, silence means counting infinity. Earth, sometimes, abhors spinning. You tell me clouds hold our secrets angels live in flowers butterflies are little girls raindrops are like prayers You tell me the different meanings of seasons how buds gradually unfurl how leaves change their colors how flowers lose their fragrance how we live our lives in circles Y'know sometimes I feel there is a meaning to it all there is a meaning to what you say there is a meaning to what you do not say, but convey. I am tiny. I am little. I was mad. Now perhaps sane. But I still connect the dots to draw the paths you have planned for me. Stars are spilling light. Night is cold. It is December, again. You tell me you are close by. Too close that I am afraid to to

middle of the night, and I'm unable to sleep. Lost in music. I am unable to sleep because I'm unable to not keep listening to this song. which is crazy. so I came to the other room, ensuring that his child-like sleep isn't disturbed. from the huge window adjacent to where I'm sitting right now, I can see till so far... cos there aren't any huge buildings on this side of the city. I can see the distant lights, the kind of view I loved to gaze during train journeys at night. It was almost like this. feels like i'm reliving those moments... yahi to hota tha...  I used to listen to songs, watch out of the windows, the sparkling stars or the moon or the distant lights in an otherwise complete darkness. even then, it was so captivating that it didn't let me sleep the whole nights. some pleasures and moments are too beautiful to be wasted sleeping. right now are one of those. i feel so content, so peaceful, so quiet in such moments.... untouched by the noise of

when the quest unfurls, but the questions vanishes, it is amazing. I'm not quite sure if this is right, but I know for the time being, it is the best in every manner.  And, it makes sense, more sense than most of the things. I've been going through a lot of confusion, a lot of random wanderings, a lot of questioning & subtle realizations. The realizations are also confusing, sometimes they mislead, while at others, they appear so meaningful. I know that whenever such confusion has happened in the past, I have believed  in my intuition. I have always clung to my innermost feelings & beliefs. Somehow, this time around, even that is tough. Good thing is I've everyone's support, bad thing is some doubts creep inside me out of nowhere (or okay!! I know from where, but let it be). I haven't felt this kind of hustle for such a long time now. I know I should, need to and will go by my intuition. I just want to clarify this to the doubts that ring in my head eve